Or at least that is what the last 6ish weeks have felt like even though for the most part I have been sitting on my booty doing nothing! Lets start where I think I left off... well kinda.. I was pregnant YAY! Right! But I was in the middle of my workout program and it was slightly unexpected and a million thoughts race through your head! Then I started bleeding around 7 weeks after intercourse ( I know TMI but come on it IS part of the story!). I was sure this was a horrible sign but I called the doctor and they said completely normal unless you are cramping and bleeding heavily. So fast forward a few days we are having my last shopping day on Kokusai street and I start cramping... and bleeding more... I am POSITIVE this is bad but it is still not bad enough so I continue... and later than night I finally decide to go to the ER. They do an ultrasound and discover a small subchorionic hematoma (SCH). Now I had no idea what this meant but they acted like it was no big deal, we got to see the baby and its heartbeat and it was doing fine.They sent me home with no special instructions just see a doctor when I got to Alabama. Little did I know that even though I had enrolled in Alabama early it was going to be a HUGGEE task to be seen there. So I continue on to Alabama.. still bleeding.... still waiting for my coverage to start in Alabama so that I can get my PCM to refer me to an OB/GYN. During this time two weeks after getting diagnosed with the SCH I pass a "blood clot" which was only about an inch and a half but after that the bleeding completely stops which I take as a good sign trying to still be positive about the whole thing thinking maybe it was the rest of the SCH. I finally get my OB/GYN appointment on the 15th of May almost five full weeks after being diagnosed with an SCH and two weeks after the bleeding has stopped. They do a urine test twice and both come up negative. The doctor kindly informs me that I am not pregnant anymore and does a few more tests and sends me for a blood test to confirm what I already know... We miscarried and lost the baby. I am not telling my story to scare people who have been diagnosed with SCH because I read a million of them.. I really hoped I would be one of the shining lights who could say look at us we survived and have this beautiful baby or the SCH completely disappeared.. or what SCH but unfortunately that was not in the cards for us this time.
My husband and I are taking a positive outlook on this. We were both upset and I am sure we both cried (though he is still in Okinawa so I cant tell for sure if he did) but I believe this happened for a reason and that God has a plan for our lives. Many times when a baby is lost during the first trimester it is because the body detects defects or detected that the baby wasn't growing properly or wouldn't survive or whatever the case may be. I know that God has amazing things in store for our lives and this just wasn't our time to have a child. There are many negative things to this situation but we are choosing to take the high road and look for the positives. There will be MANY more chances for babies but I write all this to tell you guys that I am back on the fitness kick this time starting at the wonderfully obese weight of 213.
Throughout my pregnancy I attempted to eat right, more fruits and veggies, less junk food and I kept a food journal to help identify bad eating habits (candy bars!!!) So now I am back and on day two of TurboFire and on Day two of a Juicing/Shakeology "Reboot". I don't know how many days I will continue the Juicing/Shakeology but I would like to do it for at least a week and see how much of a difference I feel. One movie that has DEFINITELY affected my life positively was "Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead". A friend recommended it to me and I have in turn recommended it to a few friends and had a few members of my family watch it! My husband and I still have the Alabama wedding coming up in 29 days so we will see what kind of difference I can make in that time frame! The wedding is coming together though I AM starting to feel crazy for trying to put it on! I did get confirmation (Jen) that our former commander who did our Okinawa ceremony will be doing this ceremony for us as well and we couldn't be happier about that! It is a great feeling to be able to include members of our Air Force family into our family lives and into our wedding but in the same token it is sad when those friends who have been a HUGE support system and closer than true family for me during my time in the military and even after cannot make it to the wedding (Jen) You guys will be SOO missed for sure but hopefully we will have a chance to catch up soon! I hope this wedding turns out great... I guess if not at least our families will get to meet each other... Here's hoping there won't be any blood shed!!!!
My husband and I are taking a positive outlook on this. We were both upset and I am sure we both cried (though he is still in Okinawa so I cant tell for sure if he did) but I believe this happened for a reason and that God has a plan for our lives. Many times when a baby is lost during the first trimester it is because the body detects defects or detected that the baby wasn't growing properly or wouldn't survive or whatever the case may be. I know that God has amazing things in store for our lives and this just wasn't our time to have a child. There are many negative things to this situation but we are choosing to take the high road and look for the positives. There will be MANY more chances for babies but I write all this to tell you guys that I am back on the fitness kick this time starting at the wonderfully obese weight of 213.
Throughout my pregnancy I attempted to eat right, more fruits and veggies, less junk food and I kept a food journal to help identify bad eating habits (candy bars!!!) So now I am back and on day two of TurboFire and on Day two of a Juicing/Shakeology "Reboot". I don't know how many days I will continue the Juicing/Shakeology but I would like to do it for at least a week and see how much of a difference I feel. One movie that has DEFINITELY affected my life positively was "Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead". A friend recommended it to me and I have in turn recommended it to a few friends and had a few members of my family watch it! My husband and I still have the Alabama wedding coming up in 29 days so we will see what kind of difference I can make in that time frame! The wedding is coming together though I AM starting to feel crazy for trying to put it on! I did get confirmation (Jen) that our former commander who did our Okinawa ceremony will be doing this ceremony for us as well and we couldn't be happier about that! It is a great feeling to be able to include members of our Air Force family into our family lives and into our wedding but in the same token it is sad when those friends who have been a HUGE support system and closer than true family for me during my time in the military and even after cannot make it to the wedding (Jen) You guys will be SOO missed for sure but hopefully we will have a chance to catch up soon! I hope this wedding turns out great... I guess if not at least our families will get to meet each other... Here's hoping there won't be any blood shed!!!!
